I’m not good enough to see some of my sins, let alone loath them.
And a very wicked person does things which you or I could not bring ourselves to do, while not even realising that there is something wrong with what they have done.
There must be many things we do which sicken God—for he is perfectly good. One day we will see our sins as God sees them. With his help we will learn to loath those sins which we are not good enough to see now.
“The nearer a man gets to being a beast, the less he knows it.” — George MacDonald
Thankfully God will not leave us to our own devices. He will set things right.
“To suffer to all eternity could not make up for one unjust word. Does that mean, then, that for an unjust word I deserve to suffer to all eternity? The unjust word is an eternally evil thing; nothing but God in my heart can cleanse me from the evil that uttered it; but does it follow that I saw the evil of what I did so perfectly, that eternal punishment for it would be just? Sorrow and confession and self-abasing love will make up for the evil word; suffering will not. For evil in the abstract, nothing can be done. It is eternally evil. But I may be saved from it by learning to loathe it, to hate it, to shrink from it with an eternal avoidance. The only vengeance worth having on sin is to make the sinner himself its executioner.” — George MacDonald
“...nothing but God in my heart can cleanse me from the evil that uttered it.”
If I wish to become a better person, I must trust someone who is better than myself.